Sunday, May 31, 2009
It's almost summer. Time for vacation, right? Not for me! I know me... and I cannot take a vacation from Bible Study. I need the accountability.
So, I'm getting ready to join Beth Moore at the Living Proof Ministry Blog for the Siesta Summer Bible Study: Me, Myself & Lies by Jennifer Rothschild. Stop by the blog... and if you're interested join the study!
And if you're here in Portland... join me as I bring together a small group to discuss the study.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
send someone else to do it."
Exodus 4:13 NIV
Last summer, when I considered if I had any time available to serve in the children's ministry department at our church, I realized that the best time for me would be on Wednesday evenings. Anthony and Christopher hang out with the Royal Rangers (our church's version of Boy Scouts), so I'm normally on my own.
However, due to Anthony's schedule, I can't get to church until 7pm... and due to Christopher's schedule... I need to leave at 8:30pm. (The truth be known is that I turn into a pumpkin at 8:31pm if I am not at home.)
I remember calling the amazing gal who oversees the Missionettes program (ie Girl Scouts) and saying, "Hey, I can basically be a warm body in a room from 7-8:30pm on Wednesday nights. Take me or leave me." She was more than happy to have me hang out with the 3rd grade girls and an amazing teacher and assistant.
It has been a wonderful year of getting to know these precious young ladies. I committed to one year which is coming to completion and am currently inquiring of the Lord as to any further commitment. Which is difficult. I love hanging out with the girls and leaders... and yet, I feel a pull to something... an unknown something...
And last night, I walked into the 3rd grade room, and on the board was written the current memory verse for the African Studies badge.
of the Lord saying,
"Whom shall I send?
And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"
Isaiah 6:8 NIV
And I thought... what a comparison.
Isaiah saying, "Send me!"
and Moses protesting, "Send someone else!"
Perhaps, Isaiah 6:8 would have been a better memory verse for me... but then, again, the humanness of Moses is probably easier for me to relate to... because in the end... Moses did go... and the Israelites were freed from captivity according to God's plan.
So, when I struggle with feeling self-conscious about blogging or knitting or teaching or whatever, I am now strengthened by the thought that God did use Moses... despite his feelings of inadequacy.
And what about you? Have you been feeling inadequate about something God is calling you to do? I hope that you are encouraged within your weakness to say, "Send me!"
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
“O Lord, please send someone else
to do it.” Exodus 4:13 NIV
My 10th Siesta Scripture Memory Team Verse... Exodus 4:13. Short verse. Easy to memorize. But strange selection on my part, again.
Why would I want to focus on the fact that Moses does not want to lead the Israelites out of captivity? A man who God would use to part the Red Sea... give the 10 Commandments... write the first five books in the Old Testament. Why would I concentrate on the fact that he felt he was not up to the challenge? Didn't want the challenge. Standing there... wondering why a burning bush would be talking to... him?
Knowing that if the burning bush had actually been a telephone... Moses would have said, "Sorry, wrong number!" and hung up.
Here's the gist of the conversation found in Exodus 3-4.
The Lord tells Moses,
"So now, go. I am sending you...
But Moses said to God,
"Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?"
"I will be with you..."
"What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, 'The LORD did not appear to you'?"
“Perform this sign,” the Lord told him. “Then they will believe that the Lord, the God of their ancestors—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob—really has appeared to you.”
"O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."
"Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
But Moses said,
"O Lord, please send someone else to do it."
And this is where I find myself. Knowing that the Lord is leading me... and that I could easily offer these words to the Lord. Not paying attention to the fact that... He chooses to send me. He is with me. He has the power to perform signs and wonders. He created me.
Knowing that a time is coming soon when the Lord will say to me, "Sheri, now go. I am sending you." And I pray that I will not protest, but say,
"Lord, send me."
Monday, May 25, 2009
My dear friend, Tamara Henkes,
lost her brother on Sunday, September 3rd of 2006.
Richard J. Henkes, II, died in Mosul, Iraq
serving his country with pride.
"He loved what he was doing,
and he was very, very good at what he did.
It's what he knew and believed in."
"He believed in serving his country and
that would have a positive effect.
He believed he was doing something
for the greater good."
"...Always the jokester...
But be could also be very quiet.
He was very serious about what he was doing for a living.
He was a very caring and compassionate person."
Rich was awarded the Purple Heart and the Bronze Star.
"Rich always knew he wanted to be a soldier and believed in the mission in Iraq."
Rich grew up in Oregon and graduated from Clackamas High School in 1992 where he wrestled, ran track and was involved in band. He enlisted in the U.S. Army immediately after graduation.
Gwen Kalvelage, a friend of the Henkes family, visited this memorial in Salem, Oregon. She granted me permission to use these photos.
Often, siblings are "the forgotten mourners." Their grief often pushed to the side or discounted in preference to parents, spouses or children.
My small gesture... to comfort my friend, to honor her brother... and to never forget the sacrifice made by our military.
Greater love hath no man than this,
that a man lay down his life
for his friends. John 15:13 KJV
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Whenever I travel back to Maryland to visit my family, I stop by a cute little shop in Funkstown, Maryland. Y2Knit. I always pick up some yarn or patterns. At Christmas I saw this reversible stripe scarf and I thought it would be a good challenge for me.
What I didn't realize was that it is essentially knitting two scarves at the same time. One side is vertical stripes and the other side horizontal. It took me forever to complete. I did learn new techniques, but I have to say its peculiarness was not worth the time.
Then I thought... hmmm... I have a little extra yarn so maybe I'll make a hat to match. Stopped by Northwest Wools in Multnomah and found a similar fiber. Set about knitting and realized that the colors didn't really match. So, I tear the hat apart and try to weave in the colors.
I'm not thrilled with it... so then I decided to try to make mittens... well, it's almost June... so, I've given up!
I made this scarf for a friend and tried to match a sweater she likes... I made it with the ends throughout the scarf... again, rip! and made it with the ends falling at the beginning and end of the row. It's fun but not what I imagined.
Okay, well, I adore this scarf. It is to go along with everyone's favorite ILG (I Look Good) Hat. Of course, I'm a little hesitant to give it to the recipient because I tried to be artsy and use a different shade on the ends.
Wow! Talk about self-conscious! It's a theme for me... whatever shall I do to overcome it?
Thursday, May 21, 2009
It's one of those days when I feel self-conscious about blogging. But I fear that if I don't post today... it will be harder to blog the next day...
So, here I am... just checking in...
I was researching a question in the Bible. I've heard the question from two different people this week. I was not prepared with what I felt to be a convincing answer.
I went to the Word expecting a concrete answer. There wasn't one. It's one of those questions where the answer seems apparent... but is it definitive? As I look at the patterns in the Bible it appears the answer would be obvious. But could I use that in a debate?
And, now, I am wondering if I need all the answers? If God is BIG enough that I don't have to defend Him? If I can be okay with trusting the Lord... taking Him at His word... and being more concerned about why someone might be asking that question than answering it.
in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly.
Psalms 40:10 NIV
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I so enjoyed reading your 6 Words. Thank you so much for sharing them with me.
Kia come schoolbus runs daily--reliable!
Carpools, cleats and projects, oh my.
Run, sweat, run, sweat, run. Repeat.
- Sheri at Magical Meals
Living God's Way Not Mine Today.
- Tammy at Breaths of Faith
Embracing Each Day Wisdom and Wonder.
- Elizabeth at Elizabeth Embracing Life
On my knees, closer to Heaven!
Life lived with God is peace.
- Deborah at Boutcrazy
I come to the Garden alone.
- Ms. Daisy at The Daisy Chain
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Tomorrow I celebrate my second year of blogging! To commemorate our anniversary, I'll retell the tale of how "The Leaking Window" arrived at its name.
Also, please stop by yesterday's post and leave a 6 Word comment... to be entered to win a prize. I'll announce the winner tomorrow.
In May of 2007, I entered the world of blog. My sister-in-law's blog, FreckledFarm was my inspiration. I love Cammyk's beautiful pictures and unpretensious posts, and I'm not alone in that thought.
Just like any other blogger, I wanted to name my blog something... well, thought-provoking, curious... or even cute. With much consideration, Christopher suggested "CheeseyWheesey." Although cute, clever, and high in protein, it wasn't the trademark moniker that I had envisioned.
Around the same time Christopher had a field trip to the Portland Classical Chinese Gardens. During the tour the guide explained to us about these curious windows throughout the garden. Each window has "a unique design depicting nature or a geometric pattern." The windows leak a view. Lan Su Yuan Leak Windows -- a “'borrowed view,' sharing a glimpse of the verdant beauty that lies beyond."
Well, I thought that was just the blog name I was looking for! Letting people have a glimpse into my life through a "window." How perfect... and to be part of a garden... well, you know how I feel about gardening...
Monday, May 18, 2009
This is the final excerpt of a series of 12 pages of notes that I took at the Beth Moore Living Proof Live Conference in Portland, April 17-18. My intent is to review my notes... and by blogging them... I am holding myself accountable. See 6 Words for more details.
I have had a lot of fun lately with the 6 Words. I've been using 6 Words for my post titles:
- A Harvest Of Righteousness And Peace
- Because I Was In The Garden
- And You Will Receive Even More
- I'm Abiding In The Garden Today
- It's That We Won't Need Anything
So, now it is your turn... leave a comment with 6 Words... either summarizing your current situation in life... or your past... or just praising God. One blessed participant will win an audio 3-CD set of Beth Moore at a Living Proof Life Conference in Colorado. Entitled: "Spiritual Mapping: Egypt, The Wilderness and Canaan." I've just finished listening to my set... and believe me... it is worth the effort to leave a 6 word comment today! I'll pick a winner on Wednesday.
After typing in the final notes today, I realized that yesterday's post -- unknowingly -- sums up part of what I think Beth was teaching us.
Thanks for hanging in there with me... Next time I'll take less pages of notes... (I'll just write smaller!)
Sheri's Journal Notes
Saturday Morning Comes to a Conclusion
I've sown flesh.
Gonna reap flesh.
You WILL reap what you sow. If you sow flesh, you are going to reap flesh.
This isn't the first time I have warned you, you know. If you use your freedom this way, you will not inherit God's kingdom.
Galatians 5:19-21 The Message
Accept God's Discipline.
See Harvest Morph.
There is only one way to change what we harvest.
Hebrews 12:5-13 (See yesterday's post)
God disciplines those He loves...
Consequences will result in healing and a harvest of righteousness and peace.
If we know we have sown the flesh - the hammer will come down.
But choose to go through it well. Cooperate. Endure.
Accept your discipline!
The disciplinary process can morph you into Jesus.
You can change your harvest, but can you own your consequences?
Life's so complicated.What counts? What truly counts?
Lost what counts.
The only thing that counts
is faith expressing itself through love.
Galatians 5:6 NIV
Morphology:The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
Keep The King The Thing.
what counts is a new creation.
Galatians 6:15 NIV
Sunday, May 17, 2009
reaps a sure reward.
Proverbs 11:18b NIV
I'm suffering the consequences.
Christopher was disrespectful today and I am paying the price. So is he. So is Anthony. We were supposed to do something fun together as a family, but the line had to be drawn. Somewhere.
And I hate it. I hate administering discipline. Christopher has been trying to emotionally manipulate me to get me to change my mind. It almost worked. Almost.
He's a great kid. The offense to some would seem minor. But that's Christopher. Delayed obedience, skirting the issue, quietly pushing the envelope. Nothing outright. And so we slide into this parental passivity.
But Anthony said, "I don't want to have a son who doesn't listen to his father."
As Christopher learns to respect his earthly father. To listen. To be obedient. He is being prepared for the greater good. Respecting his heavenly Father. Listening to his heavenly Father. Obeying his heavenly Father.
And although I hate administering discipline... I hate to think of the consequences if I don't...
word of encouragement
that addresses you as sons:
"My son, do not make light
of the Lord's discipline,
and do not lose heart
when he rebukes you,
because the Lord disciplines
those he loves,
and he punishes
everyone he accepts as a son."
Endure hardship as discipline;
God is treating you as sons.
For what son is not disciplined
by his father?
If you are not disciplined
(and everyone undergoes discipline),
then you are illegitimate children
and not true sons.
Moreover, we have all had human fathers
who disciplined us and
we respected them for it.
How much more should we
submit to the Father
of our spirits and live!
Our fathers disciplined us
for a little while
as they thought best;
but God disciplines us for our good,
that we may share in his holiness.
No discipline seems pleasant
at the time, but painful.
Later on, however,
it produces a harvest
of righteousness and peace
for those who have been trained by it.
Hebrews 12:5-11 NIV
Saturday, May 16, 2009
"With the measure you use,
it will be measured to you—
and even more.
Whoever has will be given more;
whoever does not have,
even what he has
will be taken from him."
Mark 4:24-25 NIV
I've been lingering in my garden lately. The weather has turned to spring... and so it is the time to plant my annuals.
This year I have decided to plant a couple perennials that I am not familiar with, but I look forward to discovering what they look like.. how they blossom... and even what color they are.
I plant a lot of flowers. Because I love a lot of color and blossoms. The more I plant... the more I am able to enjoy.
There were years that I rarely entered my garden. Years before I truly understood how satisfying it could be to watch my garden transform into a sanctuary. I planted nothing... I reaped nothing... and decided to spend very little time there... because it brought me no pleasure.
And there it is... with the measure I used... it was measured back to me. Plant flowers... reap flowers. Don't plant flowers... don't reap flowers.
But the amazing thing was that when I started gardening, I did discover other plants in my backyard... that were trying to grow, but they were hidden by weeds and vines. Specifically, two roses. Hidden... unbeknownst to me. Having survived years of neglect... and admiration. But because I was out there... "measuring"... planting... I received even more.
And so, I have found this to be true in my relationship with the Lord. The more time I spend with Him... in His Word... in prayer... through Bible Studies... sermons... worship... the more I receive in return. Knowledge, wisdom, discernment, peace, joy, contentment...
What is the measure you are using? A pinch? A dash? A teaspoon? Tablespoon? Or how about a cup? Whatever measure you use, it will be measured to you--and even more.
When you come to visit my garden, you will enjoy the beauty of all the glory of the flowers... but I will most certainly draw you to the two roses that were revealed to me because I was in the garden at all.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Then he added,
“Pay close attention to what you hear.
The closer you listen,
the more understanding you will be given
—and you will receive even more.
To those who listen to my teaching,
more understanding will be given.
But for those who are not listening,
even what little understanding they have
will be taken away from them.”
Mark 4:24-25 NLT
Monday, May 11, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
I am sending this verse to a dear sister of mine... she's going through a lot right now. Sometimes, I think too much... but God knows. I see Him drawing her to Him. I see Him treating her with special care and attention... because she is precious to Him.
Sisters, it's not that we shouldn't want anything... it's that we won't need anything... because God will provide. He will provide a job. He will provide healing. He will provide forgiveness. He will provide relationship. He is the lifter of our head. We are loved. We are precious. We are blessed. Bask in the love today! Breathe it in... and again, and again!
With much love,
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.
4 Even when the way goes through
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.
5 You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.
6 Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Sheri's Journal Notes
Saturday Morning Continues!
Christ has set us free.
Stand firm, then,
and do not let yourselves be
by a yoke of slavery.
Galatians 5:1 NIV
Don't be burdened again... again? You mean... I was free and burdened myself, again?
You were set free! Act like it!
Not Yet Free.
Just Trading Chains.
dominion over you:
for ye are not under the law,
but under grace.
Romans 6:14 KJV
Sin does not have dominion over me.
Sometimes we just trade chains... or addictions from one to the other... never healing.
"Dominion Sin" can be an addiction, insecurity that becomes self-righteousness, anger that turns into coldness.
Beth spoke of her dog, Star. Star has a red ball that she is obsessed with. She'll drop it in her bowl and eat around it. Beth will have to put it up, so that the dog does not get exhausted.
What is my "red ball"? What am I obsessed about? I need to put it up. The mental energy that is drained over an obsession.
you who are spiritual
should restore him gently.
But watch yourself,
or you also may be tempted.
It is easy to see someone else's "red ball"... restore one another gently.
Morph Into One Restored,In humility.
Labor in Christ.
Travail for someone else.
so they could understand the Scriptures.
Luke 24:45 NIV
I pray also that
the eyes of your heart
may be enlightened
in order that you may know
the hope to which he has called you,
the riches of his glorious inheritance
in the saints...
Ephesians 1:18 NIV
God's Approval Exceeds Approval Of Man. The 6 words I leave with.
We cannot live gray. Beth exclaims that she is "eaten up with Jesus."
She walks throughout the ladies and asks for their 6 words.
I Will Take Care Of Them.There are areas in our lives that need tending to... and it is okay to comfort them... with God's comfort.
Any Man Makes A Poor God.
More Of Jesus. Less Of Me.
Take My Hand. Don't Let Go.
Run With Me. You Are Ready.
Your Pain For My Freedom, Forever.
Underneath Our Sin To Our Need. (Symptom)
More 6 words from the conference:
With God's Approval You Will Fit In.
Fear Comes From Ego, Not God.
Hear Me My Child. Healing Is Yours.
Soon, sisters... I will be wrapping up my notes from the conference... and I'll be asking you about your "6 Words"... so start thinking about them... it'll be worth it!
Monday, May 4, 2009
***a side note... the 6 word obstacles and objectives were given by Beth Moore at the conference.
Sheri's Journal Notes
Saturday Morning Begins!
Beth wants us to get the image of Jesus within us. Literally. That He is able to stand up fully inside us. Because our ego is out of the way. So that we are "morphing" into Jesus.
My own ego betrays me. And it is the worst betrayal.
God's approval is easier to get than others.
Don't take on more than God has given me.
Crucified Ego MeansIn Competition
Other People Win.
Even Paul felt a tinge of competition when he called James, Peter and John "super-apostles" in 2 Corinthians 11:5, 12:11 ESV.
Galatians 2:9-10 Paul talks of James, Peter and John as "reputed to be Pillars"... previously Abraham, Isaac and Jacob had been referred to as pillars.
We need to be raising up others to take our place. Or do I feel threatened by the giftings of others? Why would I want to be competing with others?
Galatians 5:21 The Message
"the vicious habit of depersonalizing everyone into a rival"
Am I threatened easily?
Do I like gifted people?
Galatians 5:26 The Message
"...That means we will not compare ourselves with each other as if one of us were better and another worse. We have far more interesting things to do with our lives. Each of us is an original."
Each one is an original.
Self-absorption is miserable!
When we start to feel the competition creep up... We need to say "crucify that" -quick!
In outright conflict
Galatians 2:11-14 "I opposed him to his face...in front of them all..."
We mess up-- admit it! fess up! I did that!
We need to own our stuff!
Check our ego---
Don't Be The Person You Can't Stand!
Have I been wounded or offended by criticism?
How easily am I put off?
How easily do I quit?
Rehearsing criticism... "Oh, Lord, I feel it! Crucify my ego, fast!"
Check the criticism.
Is it valid? True?
Then check my heart and be humbled by it.
We often don't think to compliment... only to criticize.
Crucify self over it... "I win!" Well, actually... everybody wins!
Morph Into SomeoneWho do we love that we know without God we would not even befriend?
Who Miraculously Loves.
Only Jesus would have brought us together?
**** Again, thanks for bearing with me... sometimes these notes seem random, but they make sense to me... and I am so gleaning from my notes...
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Sheri's Journal Notes
Friday Night Continued
I'm Too Enslaved
to Others Approval.
the approval of men, or of God?
Or am I trying to please men?
If I were still trying
to please men,
I would not be a servant of Christ.
Galatians 1:10 NIV
When I try to please others, I become a bond slave to their approval. Enslaved.
Greek Word: doulos - bond slave
Essentially, I am bowing down to them when I seek to please them! YIKES!
There is a fine line between love and hate.
Who is it you need to approve of you?
We do not seek the disapproval of others because one word from them... POP! Our ego is shattered.
Seeking their approval is "playing into their vanity."
The busiest people may be subject to affirmation! (Okay, she is so talking to me!)
Captivity Morphs Into Liberty.
After starting your Christian lives
in the Spirit,
why are you now trying
to become perfect
by your own human effort?
Galatians 3:3 NLT
What have I started in the Spirit that I have now tried to perfect by my own effort? Whether it is a ministry... or a friendship... or my life in Christ?
Our homework for Friday evening: When you arrived around 6pm tonight, what would be the 6 Words that would define my mindset at that time?
Trying To Help God.
"Consider carefully what you hear,"
"With the measure you use,
it will be measured to you—
and even more.
Whoever has will be given more;
whoever does not have,
even what he has
will be taken from him."
Mark 4:24-25 NIV