“Father, make of me a crisis man. Bring those I contact to decision. Let me not be a milepost on a single road;
make me a fork
, that men must turn one way or another on facing Christ in me.” - Jim Elliot

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Blogging is so Passé... Again!

I just finished reading Chapters 3 & 4 of So Long, Insecurity.  Chapter 4 discusses insecurities of Biblical characters.  And we find Moses... begging the Lord to send someone else... It reminded me of a recent post I wrote on December 13th of 2009... and I felt the need to revisit it.  

I will be posting the questions and my answers in an upcoming post... but for those of you following along... you already know my answer for question #3.

Winter Water Falls. Photography by Anthony.

But Moses said, “O Lord, 
please send someone else to do it.”  
Exodus 4:13 NIV

Siesta Scripture Memory Verse 10
(May 15-30, 2009)

"Blogging is passé."

I was startled by the statement. Is it really? Because I just thought I was getting the hang of this whole blogging thing. And what will I do if I don't blog? Hmmm.... actually... it might be a relief. But for now... I blog.

I have often asked, "O, Lord, please send someone else to do it." Send someone else to write this or that post. Sometimes I feel inadequate. Okay, lots of times. Or frustrated. Some posts I struggle to write... some come easily. Some reveal my faults... and some posts seem a bit braggadocios.

Blogging has been somewhat dangerous to me. A bit tempting. I found myself in words Alicia Britt Chole wrote in Anonymous...
"...I craved affirmation and longed to be spoken of in superlatives...

Through his Word and his people, he revealed how vulnerable it made me to the power of others praise, my own prideful perfectionism, and a whole host of other unpleasant spiritual ailments...

Man's praise is like cotton candy --sugar-laden and insubstantial... For my spiritual health, I had to make a change...

Once we have known an addiction to man's praise, shifting our diet from finding value in man's acceptance to finding value in God's acceptance does not happen in a matter of days. It is a process we revisit though out our lifetimes. Thank God for hidden years! In those underestimated seasons, when no one shows up to decorate us with praise, life is finally bare enough for us to notice that God's adoring eyes have always been upon us. We had his attention all along. We just could not see it because we were too distracted by the sight of ourselves."
And so, I have found that blogging has been good for my soul. Good for my relationship with the Lord. Good for my desire to know God in a more intimate way. Choosing to be obedient to Him... whether I want to or not... knowing that others may be reading... or not. But coming to a place where I am finding my significance in Him.

He humbled you, causing you to hunger and
then feeding you with manna,
which neither you nor your fathers had known,
to teach you that man does not live on bread alone
but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD.
Deuteronomy 8:3 NIV

Now, don't get me wrong... I love me some cotton candy...


UL Cards Fan said...

LOVED reading this Sheri. Cotton Candy and Koolaid... breakfast of Champions....
Love, Linda

Angela W. said...

I still need to get a copy of that book! If there was ever a hidden season, I'm thinking motherhood in winter with sick toddlers could qualify!!

I'm so glad God sat us next to each other on the plane, Sheri, and I love reading your blog even though I don't always get a chance to comment.

Tammy said...

Oh my friend,
I can relate...but I am so glad you share your heart. Every time God speaks to me..so I hope you keep it up.


christy rose said...

I have found that blogging has done the same thing for me; bringing me to a more intentional life in many different aspects, especially my walk with the Lord. And I am learning so much along the way. :)

Mama Bev said...

This may seem scattered, but here goes. . ..
I haven't yet posted my comments from the first discussion week --
Q: when was the last time you faced our gender's massive struggle with insecurity?
A: We are moving this summer, cross country to VA, to Midlothian (a suburb of Richmond). Midlothian area has 100,000 people! Much different from Stayton, population 7,000 or so, and very different from North Pole AK (pop 1800 or so)! My first thought -- "oh, no; my makeup isn't right for big city; and my hair needs a newer cut, and my clothes -- I need to go shopping!" I actually caught myself, and said, "girl, what about the tremendous opportunity God is calling you to! You are going to this place to assist in a church plant, and all you can talk about is hair and makeup?!"

Q:What part of the definition of insecurity resonated most?
A:". . .the insecure man or woman lives in constant fear of rejection and a deep uncertainty about whether his or her own feelings and desires are legitimate. . ." (SLI p. 17)
Especially with moving, I find myself thinking, "will anyone want to listen to me? what can I do to help, and will my help be wanted?" the bizarre thing is that we are going to help our son and daughter-in-law in their church plant. We have been asked to come, they want us to help, but I'm still fighting the old lies of "you have nothing to offer, no one really wants to listen to you . . "
Stayton, OR
52 years old

Mama Bev said...

Comments for week two discussion. . .
Q: what tends to be your own "prominent false positive?"
A: everything would be perfect if I were popular, if people like me, if they listen to what I have to say

Ooh, the challenge . . .
Lord, help me let the healthy, utterly whole, and completely secure part of me increasingly overtake my earthen vessel until it drives my every emotion, reaction, and relationship. Father, I want Your truth to eclipse every false positive and let my eyes spring open to the treasure I have, and there, in Your glorious reflection I will also see the treasure I am. . ."

Q: what biblical figure resonated most with me and why?
A: I think Sarai. . .when I get the "I'm not good enough" stuff going on in my head, sometimes I have given over something I really wanted to do to someone else "because people will like them better." Then, when they are doing "my dream" I have ended up getting angry and bitter at them for doing what I "willingly" gave them to do!! How awful! I'm so grateful that God has freed me from that garbage.

Reading this book has been an opportunity for me to be reminded of how far God has brought me. Mind you, I still have insecurities (look at my last comment and giggle) but now when those thought lies pop up, I know where to take them and Who to take them to! In Christ is so much freedom, and I don't think I will ever get over it :)
Stayton, OR
52 yrs old

elizabeth embracing life said...

You they now sell cotton candy in a container. This got me thinking how good it tastes in that first flufyy mouthful but then the sweetness begins go make feel sick. I always love this passage. I have said many times that God has the wrong Elizabeth on a project and yet I know I should press forward. great post...here you be some cotton candy sweetness.