“Father, make of me a crisis man. Bring those I contact to decision. Let me not be a milepost on a single road;
make me a fork
, that men must turn one way or another on facing Christ in me.” - Jim Elliot

Monday, September 27, 2010

Somewhere between.

I am hiding today.  The weather is beautiful.  I am sitting in my garden.  And I am working on my Breaking Free Bible Study.  And I have been studying about experiencing God's peace... and enjoying God's presence.  And today I need that.  Because I am somewhere between the dailiness of life... and the sacredness of life.  Somewhere between folding the laundry... and reading the Bible.  Somewhere between hanging on Facebook... and praying for a friend.  Somewhere between soaking in the sun... and raising money to build churches in Ethiopia.

Somewhere between.

I easily get frustrated with the daily life.  The routine of it all. Fretting over what to wear or how late I will be or why certain commercials are shown during sports programs or why someone didn't speak to me or my plants didn't ripen or when will this road construction end or who do I call to clean the gutters or will the Republicans win the House.

And I wonder how to balance it with the fact that a dear friend just had a stroke... or is struggling to quit smoking... or is wondering when her wayward husband will return... or is wondering when her husband will no longer be addicted to alcohol... or is wondering if she will ever be the love of her husband's life... or will she ever find a husband... or will she get through this depression... or survive this breast cancer...

Perspective.  Peace.  Presence.  All given by a Holy God. 
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and 
when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.  
For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Isaiah 43:2-3
I admit that I more readily turn to God to grant me perspective, peace and presence in the circumstances that I cannot control.  I cannot heal someone... or free them from an addiction... or mend a broken relationship.  But I know He can.

Somewhere between.

But for those circumstances that He has allowed me to have some control over... "those far less strenuous circumstances" where I am "not as desperate" I find myself struggling without perspective, without peace or without sensing His presence.  Because I have not sought Him on these things.  And I struggle somewhere between my need to control a situation and my need to relinquish control over a situation I deem not overwhelming enough to hand over to a Holy God.

So, today... while I am hiding in His presence... and asking for peace and perspective on the things I cannot control... I have decided to ask for His peace and His perspective on things that I think I need to control.

That He would grant peace and perspective
for this and
for that and
for everything between.


Anonymous said...

This is a beautiful post.

I need God's perspective, constantly. "Perspective. Peace. Presence." Those three words sum up what's going on in my life right now.

I'm constantly depending on God's perspective of what's going on in my life right now. Sitting in His presence and trying to accept His peace. Yes, trying to. Because sometimes when I'm at a place where I seem unsure, I don't want to grab the peace. I want to know stuff, lol. Oddness - I know!

vintage girl at heart said...

I needed this post today sooo much!!
Have been cranky over things I have no control over.
Needed to be reminded of just WHO is in control.

gideonmommasita said...

I Love, Love, Love your posts, they resonate with me, you put words to my thoughts and feelings that I think no one else understands...thank you.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

And I pray that he's answered the earnest prayer of your heart.

He longs to be the Peace-Giver. He's certainly done it for me.

Love and prayers to you tonight, in your "between." You will pass through, as will I.


Krystle said...

Thank you for your post. You have such a sweet and tender spirit!

Runner Mom said...

This post is just amazing! I love your writing, my friend! What a gift He has given you. And, that photo---just knocked my socks off (well, my flipflops! No socks yet!).

Are you on FB? I just realized your location and want to talk to you about a possible trip---possible!--out your way next summer. Would love to chat with you.

And, you would have loved the gIRL getaway! Awesome!

Kathi Woodall said...

Somewhere between earth and eternity... "I am a stranger on earth, do not hide your commands from me." (Psalm 119:19,NIV)