I am hiding today. The weather is beautiful. I am sitting in my garden. And I am working on my Breaking Free Bible Study. And I have been studying about experiencing God's peace... and enjoying God's presence. And today I need that. Because I am somewhere between the dailiness of life... and the sacredness of life. Somewhere between folding the laundry... and reading the Bible. Somewhere between hanging on Facebook... and praying for a friend. Somewhere between soaking in the sun... and raising money to build churches in Ethiopia.
I easily get frustrated with the daily life. The routine of it all. Fretting over what to wear or how late I will be or why certain commercials are shown during sports programs or why someone didn't speak to me or my plants didn't ripen or when will this road construction end or who do I call to clean the gutters or will the Republicans win the House.
And I wonder how to balance it with the fact that a dear friend just had a stroke... or is struggling to quit smoking... or is wondering when her wayward husband will return... or is wondering when her husband will no longer be addicted to alcohol... or is wondering if she will ever be the love of her husband's life... or will she ever find a husband... or will she get through this depression... or survive this breast cancer...
Perspective. Peace. Presence. All given by a Holy God.
I admit that I more readily turn to God to grant me perspective, peace and presence in the circumstances that I cannot control. I cannot heal someone... or free them from an addiction... or mend a broken relationship. But I know He can.When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; andwhen you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
But for those circumstances that He has allowed me to have some control over... "those far less strenuous circumstances" where I am "not as desperate" I find myself struggling without perspective, without peace or without sensing His presence. Because I have not sought Him on these things. And I struggle somewhere between my need to control a situation and my need to relinquish control over a situation I deem not overwhelming enough to hand over to a Holy God.
So, today... while I am hiding in His presence... and asking for peace and perspective on the things I cannot control... I have decided to ask for His peace and His perspective on things that I think I need to control.
That He would grant peace and perspective
for this and
for that and
for everything between.