Canola Fields near Banks, Oregon
I've been working on Day 1 of Week 2 of the Ruth Bible Study this morning. And I was so moved by the raw honesty of the Bible verses that I read, that I thought to share them with you. Oftentimes, we think when we approach God that we aren't allowed to be honest with Him. That we should pretend like everything is okay... and we don't have any questions of Him... and that we aren't bitter for the lot that has been dealt to us. But we find in the Bible numerous examples of when those who loved God deeply, questioned God's love for them. Felt crushed by Him. Abandoned by Him. And they told Him about it.
Why don't we tell God how we really feel? We will tell those around us. But not God. For some reason, we don't feel like we can talk to God about how we are really feeling. But I have found that when I come to Him with my raw emotions and all, that I have opened my heart to allowing Him to comfort me. To speak to me. To get down to what are the desires of my heart.
So as you read these verses today... think about what you would truly want to say to God. Do you feel like He has forsaken you? Crushed you? Left you to fend for yourself? These are real feelings. Share them with the Father today. And then ask Him to help you work through the questions and feelings you have. He is faithful. (2 Timothy 2:13)
20 “Don’t call me Naomi,” she told them. “Call me Mara, because the Almighty has made my life very bitter. 21 I went away full, but the LORD has brought me back empty. Why call me Naomi? The LORD has afflicted me; the Almighty has brought misfortune upon me.”
16 Even if I summoned him and he responded,
I do not believe he would give me a hearing.
17 He would crush me with a storm
and multiply my wounds for no reason.
18 He would not let me regain my breath
but would overwhelm me with misery.
19 If it is a matter of strength, he is mighty!
And if it is a matter of justice, who will summon him?
8 Your hands shaped me and made me.
Will you now turn and destroy me?
9 Remember that you molded me like clay.
Will you now turn me to dust again?
8 He has blocked my way so I cannot pass;
he has shrouded my paths in darkness.
9 He has stripped me of my honor
and removed the crown from my head.
10 He tears me down on every side till I am gone;
he uproots my hope like a tree.
1 My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from the words of my groaning?
2 O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, and am not silent.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape.
1 Samuel 1:10-11
10 In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the LORD. 11 And she made a vow, saying, “O LORD Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the LORD for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.”
1 Samuel 1:15-16
15 “Not so, my lord,” Hannah replied, “I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the LORD. 16 Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”
"I believe many Christian women are not nearly this honest with God or themselves. We feel forsaken by God or deep down we are angry or bitter with Him, but we never let ourselves stop long enough to address our feelings with Him.
Perhaps we're afraid of what we'll experience when we get there. Maybe we're fearful that we won't hear anything from God, that He'll require something of us we don't want to give, or that we'll learn something about ourselves we don't want to know. Perhaps it's too much work. " ~ Kelly Minter, Ruth Bible Study (page 41)
Let me know how I can be praying for you.