Quote From: The Polar Express
Hero Girl: It says "lead." Like "lead balloon."
Conductor: I believe it also is pronounced "lead." As in "leader," "leadership." "Lead the way." Follow you anywhere, ma'am.
This is a monthly post on my One Word for 2013: Lead.
Sad. Today I am sad. Or is a better word perhaps... saddened. A bittersweet moment for me. Bittersweet when I come to the end of a season. A season that has brought great clarity to some. A season that has brought new sisters into friendship. A season that has refined some. And for others it is a season that they choose to defer. The end of a season. The end of a Bible Study.
And not just any Bible Study. This study was on the redemptive grace of God to those who have been Had through seduction. Seduction of sexual promiscuity. Seduction of marital infidelity. Seduction of illegal drugs. Seduction of greed. Seduction of power. And most definitely the seduction of pride. We have an enemy and he will find our weakest area and seduce us until we fill that legitimate need illegitimately.
And those of us who have been Had by seduction have to struggle with the TRUTH that God longs to restore us. Longs for our sincere repentance. Longs for us to move past our self-deprecation and into His true forgiveness. Forgiveness that was given freely. And must be received freely. Forgiveness that can only be experienced when we stick our ego and pride where they should be AND humble ourselves and accept God's mercy and grace.
Lead. This was a hard study to lead. Especially when the ladies didn't realize exactly what the study would be about. Asking ladies to strip down their egos and pride and put on the garment of humility. That is a lot to ask. One of the precious gals decided that because she had already worked through a restoration from her own seduction that she would not participate in the study. I begged her then to come and walk alongside others to the same restoration she has experienced, but she refused. No, for her, there was nothing she could gain from this study. But I think she missed out. No, I know she did.
There perhaps is no greater joy to me than to see a woman humble herself before her God and accept His love and grace and mercy. To see the weight of carrying her sin and burden lifted from her shoulders. The freedom she experiences when she knows that she is forgiven and loved by a Holy God. It is beautiful. Beautiful. A sight that I don't feel worthy to see but it is as if a reward the Father gives me for walking alongside these ladies.
When Godly People Do Ungodly Things. It happens. We do things that we never ever EVER think we will do. And only God can AND will restore us. And He can choose to use us, again. He can choose to use us exactly where we have fallen. He uses us in His restoration of others. To a fullness of Christ. To a place of deep and abiding love.
He can take what we think is a lead balloon and use it. He can use us to lead others. Lead others to let go of their lead balloons. Because they see something in us that is compassionate... that is real... that is humbled... that is HEALED and no longer HAD.
Are you holding on to your lead balloon? Do you not feel worthy to receive forgiveness? He is waiting for you. No, actually... He is running towards you!
"But while he was still a long way off,
his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him;
he ran to his son,
threw his arms around him and kissed him."
Luke 15:21 NIV84
The Parable of the Prodigal Son