The Desert of Depression:
Celebrating January 15th, 2006
My 19th Anniversary

 


White Sands National Monument, New Mexico  

photography by Anthony



She still visits me 

although she is not welcome.


She knows that I am stronger.

But that doesn't bother her.


She's persistent.


She takes advantage of any situation.

A mispoken word.

A hurt feeling.

Hormones. 

The weather.

A head cold.


She'll just try to sneak in...

she is slow and subtle.

And sometimes I let my guard down...

and I let her in...

And I become just like her.


But it isn't for long

because I have learned her weaknesess...

and I have learned my strengths.


I have heard that she has been visiting you lately.

And you are having a hard time resisting her.

You are weak.

And she knows it.


But she is no longer a secret.

We don't have to hide her anymore.

Although some do.

I don't.

I can't.


Depression.

Has been defeated.

On January 15th, 2006

she came for a visit.

And she was ruthless.


But God has comforted me

in my troubles.

So now I can

bring comfort 

to you.


Written January 18, 2010

For my 4th Anniversary


Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, 

the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 

who comforts us in all our troubles, 

so that we can comfort those in any trouble 

with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 

2 Corinthians 1:3-4


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